Last night I went to the "Walmarts" to pick up what I needed to make some homemade salsa. I got all the fresh ingredients except for one thing...a jalapeno. Of all things to not be stocked...1 little jalapeno. My husband really likes my salsa, so I decided to stop by Food Giant.
I did offer up a little prayer that Food Giant would have at least one jalapeno. I also prayed that I would not have to use my debit card for said purchase for if you have ever purchased 1 jalapeno you know why.
The Lord answered my little prayer.
YES, thank you, Lord that Food Giant was stocked with jalapenos!! When my 1 jalapeno was rung up, it came to a whopping $0.22. I looked in my wallet and guess what? I had exactly $0.22! YES, thank you, Lord, that I did not have to use my debit card!
I hesitate to share this because never in a million years would I take praying flippantly...I am sharing because God hears your prayers no matter if they are for the big or small things in your life, and He knows the deepest desires of your heart. When you experience the answer to the "small" things, like 1 jalapeno & the correct change in your wallet...you will know and trust that He will answer the "big" things.
When I was asked to write about my prayer journey that I have been traveling with the Lord, I quickly said “Yes!”. It is a journey that is exciting, exhilarating, expectant and mysterious. The best part of prayer is that you get to know the heart of God. It is never, ever a waste of time. Our wisest approach to prayer is waiting on the Lord and trusting in His timing and His answers.
Let’s go back to that word “time”.
I remember the days of retreating to my closet with my Bible in hand and spending hours on my knees. Scripture would permeate every fiber of my being as I personalized it and prayed it out loud. I would sit still & listen to the sound of Jesus singing over me:
“Boo, do not be afraid",
"Boo, do not worry",
"Boo, My grace is sufficient for you",
"Boo, do not let your heart be troubled",
"Boo, My peace I leave with you",
"Boo, I will never leave you nor forsake you",
"I am the Good Shepherd",
"anyone who lives & believes in Me will never die",
"Boo, before Abraham was, I AM",
"Boo, I am the Way, the Truth, the Life",
"Boo, all things are possible with God".
Now, fast forward 16 years later and add a 10-year-old, 2 dogs, work, ministry, aging parents who are in nursing facilities in opposite directions, and everything in between that goes along with taking care of their home and their dog, it is fair to say that “time” is a rare commodity these days. Oh, and may I just throw in that their little dog doesn’t like our big dogs. So, there’s that. These days I don’t know whether I am coming or going. Usually, it is the going…always the going. Sigh.
I do have my time in the early morning hours that I have set apart as my sweet time with Jesus. Just me being transparent with you, I don’t spend hours upon hours in uninterrupted prayer in my favorite, quiet secret place like I used to. My prayers have turned into breath prayers throughout the day. Sometimes when I don’t even know what to pray, I just say, “Jesus”, because the One who carried out creation is the One who prays for me.
Maybe you are like me, and your struggles are so overwhelming you find yourself praying, "Lord, I just can't do this anymore...not one more day...not one more hour...not one more second". No matter how your circumstances appear, the one certain thing is that they will eventually change. Through praying God's Word it will change how you see, and just like that, He will transform your situation in ways you could never imagine.
Whenever I find myself wondering if my prayers are really being heard and if they really make a difference, I will pull out my old prayer journals. The place where I poured out my heart and soul with true honesty and not worry about someone thinking I am crazy (ha!). As I read them my heart and my eyes are opened to the many ways they have been answered. This fuels my want to pray, not my need to pray, but my want to pray.
The "need to pray" is so radically different than the "want to pray". Needing to pray is like making a list and checking it off once I have done it. Wanting to pray comes from the desire of my heart.
I want to love Him.
I want to seek Him.
I want to get up before the sun and talk to Him.
I want to because God knows what is just around the corner on the road before me.
I want to because He knows how to prepare and strengthen me for the bumps in the road.
I want to because I am too afraid of missing something meaningful, fascinating, or fabulous that He wants to show me or tell me.
The miracle of God is that after all these years later, and even in my current journey, I still felt the same way this morning, even when time is of the essence.
How about when you were having one of those mornings when nobody was around to see your angst, despair, or sorrow?
Nobody heard you wailing.
Nobody knew how lonely you felt.
Nobody knew the doubt that filled your mind wondering if God really cares about what you are facing?
You are wondering if God really hears what you are pouring out to Him. Then your phone dings letting you know you have received a text. You grab your phone as if is your lifeline. You open it and eyes all blurry from the tears you read, "I couldn't quit praying for you this morning. I believe God really wants me to remind you that He is with you, He knows your situation from beginning to end, and He loves you very much".
Or maybe you are the one God chooses to send that text to someone. There you sit surprised by what God has done. The Creator of the Universe literally appointed someone through the leadership of the Holy Spirit and the desperate cries of your heart to reach out to you. To let you know, you are not alone and your prayers are being heard. Never take that lightly.
Here's the thing. Prayer awakens you and gives you hope! My hope is in Jesus because He always comes through for me. He has never let me down, He can change everything in the twinkling of an eye. He is the living Word of God. He does what's best for me. He is always victorious.
My prayer journey is remaining faithful no matter what. Your prayer journey is remaining faithful no matter what. Whether it is through endless hours of prayer or through the breath prayers you pray throughout the day. Make prayer your life.
"O Lord , hear me as I pray; pay attention to my groaning. Listen to my cry for help, my King and my God, for I pray to no one but you. Listen to my voice in the morning, Lord . Each morning I bring my requests to you and wait expectantly." ~ Psalm 5:1-3
Roberta "Boo" Sellers is a wife to her amazing husband and a mama to a blue-eyed, redheaded, and full of life boy. She is a lover of early morning sunrises and late evening sunsets seeing them as handwritten love letters from God, the Lover of her soul. Being adopted at the age of six weeks old, placing a baby for adoption when she was sixteen, and adopting her only child she vividly sees the imagery God places on being adopted into His family upon salvation. Many times in her life she has experienced that everything really does work for the good of those who love Him. Through the good and the not so good, she knows that her hope only comes from Jesus.